We go through so many stages when we’re here. We shed a baby body, go into a child’s, from child to an adult, an adult into old age. Why shouldn’t we go one step beyond and shed the adult body and go onto a spiritual plane ? That is what we do. We don’t just stop growing; we continue to grow. When we get to the spiritual plane, we keep growing there, too. We go through different stages of development. When we arrive, we’re burned out. We have to go through a renewal stage, a learning stage, and a stage of decision. We decide when we want to return, where, and for what reasons. Some choose not to come back. They choose to go on to another stage of development. And they stay in spirit form…some for longer than others before they return. It is all growth and learning…continuous growth. Our body is just a vehicle for us while we’re here. It is our soul and our spirit that last forever … (Chapter two, Cycle of Life).

There are a lot of “extreme” statements from the Master for someone who do not believe of “past life”. But if we go through to every chapter of this book and try to contemplate it, reflected ourselves, then we may know that this is not just about “past life”, it is about we, as a human being, choose our path in every stages of our life. Not just one life but for every journey that we choose.

The path will be vary, depends on the spiritual life that we failed to achieve in our journey. The spiritual life is not about “faith”; it is about us as a human being has to love each other. Is about a love that a mother should give to her children, about a love that a husband should give to his wife, about a superior love to their subordinates.

This is about Karma, suffering, happiness and healing.

This book was talking about LOVE. The LOVE which stated in every religion in the world but mistakenly understood by their disciple because of a human ego. The love which if we practiced it will prevent us from war, from suffering.

This book was talking about our responsibility as human being for our action, about forgiveness, about Immortality and finally about THE UNIVERSAL GOD.

The last answer that I search for. The answer about religion which finally gave me an understanding that religion was made by human to feed our hunger of the MASTERS.

When it comes to God we are all blind, none of you have ever seen him or heard him. But I’ve touched God. I’ve felt His presence…(Michell speech in her graduation day …”Black”)

I was reading my friend’s article about Faith, Piety and Power when I saw the above quotation at my notebook.

The quotation that made me remembers my pilgrimage to a quiet, wet and cold, Lourdes in January 2005.

The perfect time to contemplate (said one of the priests). The season that they waiting for. Time to look at ourselves walk from the darkness through the Light. Time to touch God from the Dark. Time to hear God’s sound from our deafness.

I never saw God, not even heard Him, but yes….I’ve touched God’s presence in every stages of my life. Not in the best path of my life but in the worst path of my life.

The path where I said nasty things to God, the path when I questioned God for every answer that He had given to me; the path where I could not stand on my feet.

The path who taught me of wisdom, spirit and courage at the end of the journey.

The journey that made me understand that because of their blindness relationship every human being has the right to say that their faith is the best amongst the others.

Yes, blindness…because we never saw God nor heard about Him. We only felt and touch His presence through the wisdom, the spirit and the courage.

Something that we may say “insane” to someone who beliefs to what they felt; not based on the fact.

The insanity which made us “sane”.

Therefore no one in the world who have the right to persuade others to follow their faith because every human being have their own understanding, their own way to touch God.

And same as my friend, at the end, I keep questioning, if every human being could see that faith was vertical relationship with God; do they still say that theirs are better than others ? If every human being could see how “insane” they were, do they still use it as a tool to gain the power ?

Faith is insanity….

I liked the music … it’s telling you the suffering, the losses of man’s soul.

The rest, the story, the picture, told you everything…about the ego of a country, about the dignity of the country.

I felt sorry for the family who lost their husband, son, brother in Munich, but my sympathy was for the person who’s dedicated their life to do the revenge.

The question left after I watched this movie was …when we finally live in peace ?

I remembered one of the question at yahoo.answer asked about the oil in the Middle East and American politics when finally I saw this movie. Questioned the American position of the Middle East Oil Business.

The movie did not answer it all, but it was interesting to watch the beliefs of fanatical people, the greedy people, the oil and the politic connected one in another this movie.

How the decision could change people’s life, destroyed the good one and left the bad one. How the fanatical beliefs made a father lost his son, washed the brain of the poorest one to become a martyr for nothing.

Finally I had the picture of the fanatical people who destroyed my country, Indonesia , who destroyed their own people …

Anyway, the picture was beautiful, especially at the last part, take my breath away.

This is a hard movie …don’t watch is just for fun. I think I have to watch it once again to get the “main” message.

This is a story of a young teenage girl which does not have most of the girls in their teenage have, up to date dress, peer group, and a friend.

Which reminds me of my teen age life …; the world where there is no responsibility, where everybody looks so weird, the world where we can explore anything, where school is the best place to visit or maybe the last place to visit …?

This is a story of a young teenage girl which has the potential where most of the girls in her class don’t have….

This is a story of a young teenage girl looking outside her world with the jealousy because her new friends “Alison Ashley” seem to have everything that she ever wanted.

Until one night during the camp talent drama, she realized the she has the potential to become a writer and the “hating Alison Ashley” was the person to be sorry because her family never pays attention to her life.

…So. Is it worth to consume..? Yes..but only the story ..if you can stand to watch it’s excessively long and trivial story …

I love “Thanks for the Memory” more than “As Time Goes By”.

Maybe because all the songs in “Thanks for the Memory” made me dance with my sad, funny, lovely, memory.

While in “As Time Goes By” the attachment is different, the contemplation is different.

Anyway if I have to rated this album, I will say it is worth to listen, it is worth to have t.

.... Goodbye, no use leading with our chins. This is where our story ends. Never lover, ever friends. I sincerely want to say. I wish you bluebirds in the spring. To give your heart a song to sing….(WISH YOU LOVE)

I play this album, on and on and on … until today.
It seems that all this songs in this album took me out from my hidden place.

Like a teenager, feel the 1st love for the first time.
Like a lover had their first date.
Like a couple spent their relaxing time away from their children.

Will you dance with me ?

.... Darling you send me. I know that you send me ….(YOU SEND ME)

I always like Kenny G Saxophone; a music for every season.
I always expecting something new every time I buy his new album.
But it seems that lately, all the songs that I heard in his album were not a new song, a song that I can’t find in his other album.

There are 2 CD’s in this “The Essential Kenny G”, his 1st CD’s didn’t make me move, but his 2nd CD’s finally made me enjoy my morning sun, perhaps because all of the song are my favourite music.

Anyway…it’s “The Essential”....

Worth consuming or Not worth consuming ?

These 2 questions are always hanging around like a bee in my mind everytime I watch a movie.

When I watched this movie “Bee Season”, I have to admit that this is a difficult one to judge.

90 % of the story was about the 4 people in that movie, the father, the mother, the daughter and the son, picturing their own restlessness. It’s quite difficult to find the relation between each person “restlessness”.

But one thing that I found out from that movie, something real, that we always keep our own “restlessness” within our selves. We never open it to the closest person of ours.

Worth consuming or not worth consuming ? One thing that I know…it’s difficult to understand this movie but it is worth to learn something from “Bee Season”, something that can enrich our lives.

I always need a music when I want to express my thought in written. Not just written my journal but also during preparing my business plan.

I felt that music always gave me an energy and inspiration for every word that I put.

Il Divo, since their 1st album, already made my mind fly away beyond the language barier, took me to the place where I belong, took me to the places where the only left was just a “memory”.