This was the most intense trip I have ever had. I saw, heard, and felt so many crazy things. It scared me so bad that I began crying for my life on several occasions, convinced that surely I was going to die that night. I actually saw myself die around five times. I saw God’s face, heard him spoke, and listened as he calmed me and told me the secrets of life. Everything made sense…but now I can’t for the life of me remember what he looked like or what he said. But I KNOW in my heart that he said something, so the fact that my brain can’t quite make it out doesn’t bother me. I have never been a religious person, but I am almost completely convinced now that there is something more for us after death and that everything will always work out okay. After that night, my boyfriend and I decided to get married and have a baby. Life seems well worth living now, and I going to live it to the fullest.

I never thought I would shoot up. I was planning on snorting it when my ex boyfriend brought some over, but he had brought a syringe and helped me put it in a vein in my left arm. It bruised it. It was the most amazing feeling ever, but AS SOON as I started coming down from it, I was craving more. All I could think about was having more, but there was no way to get any. Fuck, I’m still thinking about it. I’ve been pacing around my room looking for things to sell to get some more. :-/

Mmmmm…yummeh.

I really like this eye cream. It makes the skin around my eyes feel cool and moisturized after I have to scrub my makeup off. However, it kinda burns my eyes if it gets in them, so I only put it on at night right before I go to sleep.

I take a generic of Zoloft for anxiety. It really does help, and the only time I have nightmares/mild hallucinations are when I stop taking it cold turkey and then randomly take it again some time later. I used to feel jittery and like I was constantly waiting for something, but this has eliminated that.

Haha. Well, I am bipolar and this works quite well. I could be better…could always be better, but this is the best thing I’ve tried (in combination with Zoloft). My mom, both brothers, grandmother, great grandmother, aunt, and several cousins all take it. I think I’m starting to kind of “get used to it”, I guess, so I’m thinking I need a higher dose…again.

What positive things can I say about this that haven’t already been said? It is a wonderful recreational drug and has lots of great memories associated with it for me.

As far as vodka goes, this one is pretty smooth. Out of desperation one night, my mom, asshole ex-piano teacher, and I mixed it with red cream soda. WOW, what a bad idea. It tasted gross AND while my piano teacher was puking his guts up later that night, I was so drunk that I thought he was puking up blood so I started crying. ???

During the summer of ‘07, I had Smirnoff Vanilla Vodka mixed with Coke. Some friends and I went to a few of the lame county fairs because we had nothing better to do, and brought the coke-vodka mixture with us. Oooooh, such hardasses. ;-)

Since then, I just take shots of it straight.

I absolutely love the Pomegranate and Cranberry versions of this. I had the original for the first time last night, and it really wasn’t as good as I was expecting! Oh, well. It’s alcohol. It isn’t supposed to taste like Crystal Light or some shit. Lol.

I first had this at a party in Ohio. It’s really just Everclear and fruit punch. The drink itself tastes pretty good, but I looooove the pieces of fruit in it. The fruit tends to absorb a lot of alcohol (or so I’ve been told), so I make sure to eat plenty of it. :-)