This book is the movie SLC Punk should have been. Young suburban punk chooses poverty for rebellion’s sake and gives it up for higher education. The characters even debate the merits of SLC Punk in the book.
Unlike SLC Punk, “This Feels Like a Riot Looks” comes from someone who really understands the scene. Kilian Balach, the author, obviously lived and breathed the south Florida punk scene during the summer in question.
Unfortunately, the book is poorly edited. The story is clearly autobiographical, but written in third person for some odd reason. It reads like it’s both about a 19-year-old with limited education and by a 19-year-old with limited education. The stream of conciousness ranting and flagrant typos are so distracting, it took me months to actually get through the thing.
After nearly giving up a dozen times, I finished it and I was glad. Glad beacuse the book touches on topics I can personally relate to: a vividly accurate portrait of the music scene, frienship and betrayal and, of course, the pressing questions of which life path to take at a very confusing point in a young man’s life.
This Feels Like a Riot Looks makes no sweeping conclusions. Both sides of the coin are presented equally. Living the bohemian life as a starving artist among junkies and drunks is both a point of pride for the lead character and something he resents. Living the straight life is also given fair treatment. He views leaving the scene for college “up north” as an escape and an enticing intellectual challenge. At the same time, the main characters regard people their age who chose to play by society’s rules and walk the well-worn path with dripping disdain.
I will say this was worth consuming, but I cannot recommend it. My friend found this in a used book store in San Francisco and passed it along to me because he thought I’d appreciate the subject matter. I truly did and I feel like I owe the author an e-mail. I have a hunch this book has not been widely read outside of his social network and I want to thank him for taking the time to write it all down. I get the feeling that this was his first book and he poured his soul into every page, bad editing or not.